Comfortably Numb

I have not found a better antonym for passion. I have spent many days, if not years, living in a state of "comfortable numbness".



Living a life lacking in passion. There had been a time in my life that I did not listen to music. I had no radio. I had no stereo. This was all by choice. I had made an unconscious decision to withdraw from life. I was trapped in a world of darkness and despair. Such is the life of someone living in depression. A life devoid of passion.

How ironic.

That was another lifetime ago. Gratefully, I cannot fully remember those days. Maybe I just blocked them out. Regardless, I choose not to dwell in the past, but to live life to the fullest. Today I choose passion.

Today's passion reminder was music. I am one of the older generation who happens to still listen to regular FM radio (at least in my car). I know, the sound is not great and I have no control over the playlist, but still.. there is something about radio broadcasting that is very special.

Maybe it is because I hear the passion of the DJ's? We do know that passion is contagious.

Maybe it is the anticipation of what song will play next? We all like surprises, right?

Maybe it is just a reminder of days gone by... the way things used to be.

I had my music. I had my passion fix for the day.